Sunday, August 21, 2011

~life~

a lot things happen in my current life... and is very complicated but i do understand very clear about my complicate...

I dun mean to make it like this...juz my stupid n useless feeling...ya...I used to a
NAUGHTY GURL EVER...
had this name for myself for almost 3 years....seems so long i had this name...but 3 years...

actually i really had enough things to settle d...like my family..money...study and so on...but not always my love life...i dun wan anything happen with my love life...if not my life really all mess-up...gosh...==

I will juz start with my love story...

the 1st one I'll juz give a title ~everything~

He's the one always involve in my life...everything...he almost know everything about me...my character...favorite...happiness... I feel safe when with him...is like no stress..onli happiness...u can say that u can c the future with him...i admit that he loves me more than I love him...i mean love always mean to balance right? He always my safe choice....the best thing is he will not control my life...freedom really at least 90%.....where to find this kind of guy...

my circle of friends always say that i found the one...yup... I hope we will together till forever...but everything is hard to say...but still I love him... He's good guy.. I know... I won't hurt him....hurt him juz like hurting me....=(... I LOVE YOU BI! That will not change as long this relationship is still strong... muakz...

2nd one ~two side to a story~

y I put this? I juz dunno...sudden pop in my mind to put this to describe story between us... This guy...rich enough although he always dun admit it...=) He's very young...a lot of things is very different when together with him....happiness...peacefulness...as usual...no stress...but this guy is different...obviously...there always has a gap between me n him...I always feel that...but i dunno he feel that a not... He doesn't give me secure nor stability... is juz no need to think anything...u juz have to think erm...the feel of happiness hard to describe...

I very thank him on that....coz it did help me a lot...n really give the feeling back y i have a long-term relationship with a guy.... at the same time...he has a girlfriend too....which also keep improving to be the best...i can c that she really into him...so i think very long time to make a decision that should let go or not....keep on think n think.... at last...i already decided that i wan to let go....not coz i dun love him anymore but i really dun wan to hurt that gurl for the 1st thing... 2nd... i already did de best to make their relationship better...

I love him as my brother and best friends which is can chat everything that kind... that's why.. i juz think that should i settle up this tuesday...or after the sem...but i can be cruel n kind at the same time...but either way..I'm still the bad one who do this....I DUN MEANT TO HURT YOU... I appreciate everything u done to me... with the coldness treatment u gave...i actually can confirm that u still love her de ma... =).... blame me on everything if i hurt you....

3rd one ~dream come true~

for so many years... this guy fall for me at last... he's de one who'll make me hard to choose in future.... even though i say i will not fall for this guy again... but think deeply i did not actually start a relationship with him...he's very good....characteristic almost same with everything.... my feeling towards him is complicated... after some time.... is this call 有缘无份.... y must treat me like this.... always late a step...haiz...

actually i feel so sweet n touch when he say he like me...n wan me to be his girl if can.... he oso know that he can't force me... coz i have the one....i juz think that... if one day...wan me to choose between 2 of them...It'll be hard....either of them will be hurt....gosh...hope this will not happen... for him...i really dunno...everything or dream come true...is juz so mysterious for me... which is always attract me to stick with them..XD....

naughty gurl always like challenge...I love them...every of these relationship have the songs about me n them....=) why i must the lucky one...coz the good guy around me...n i always the bad one who will hurt them at last....although not all of them... i dun like make decision always de...coz u think i'm noti n heartless always come to the end... i tell u is a NO! every relationship that end up...I always cry...=(...

at this matter...i always thanks to my ji mui...i love them...=)...no matter how bad i am..they still be there for me...

~everything~
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁... 你是我的专属天使... 唯我能独占... 没有谁能取代你在我心上...
拥有一个专属天使... 我哪里还需要别的愿望...

~two side to a story~
And I'm so sorry that I hurt you... Sorry that I fell through... Sorry i was falling in love with you...
I'm sorry that it came true... But sorry doesn't turn back time...
For all that i have done to you...
I wish that i could make it right...
So sorry that i loved you... Sorry that i needed you...Sorry that i hold you tight...
~dream come true~
我非常爱你... 非常确定... 你像情人... 又像知己... 多麽幸运能遇见你... 是上天赐给我的福气...
那种开心... 那种窝心... 那种安心... 幸福很难... 我相信... 只要我们够努力... 沿途摇呀晃呀也都是美景...

I'm still naughty gurl ever...lifestyle out of control... the bad one always used to be...really have to continue my assignment d....if not i can't pass up on time... as for two side to a story...i really hope u'll put the blame on me...slowly 4get me...coz i'm not the good one n dun deserve to be miss....wish me luck ba...hope tuesday i can end up everything....=)

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